IT'S AUGUST!!

I'm very happy that it is August because I go on maternity leave at the end of the month and I can now say....I'm having a baby NEXT month.  WOAH!  Can we all just take a second and ask where the heck 2011 has gone?  I've been pregnant this whole year so far, pretty funny to think of it that way.  I am obviously very excited to meet our new baby and be done with pregnancy.  These days I'm not feeling so well.  I have very bad acid reflux so I have to take medicine before bed so I don't wake up puking in the middle of the night and choking.  I know, gross.  Morning nausea has been bad but for the most part it passes.  My left hip well, that is a lost cause.  Exhaustion?  CHECK!  But you know what?  It's ok, because baby is healthy and moving, and we are so close.  I am so so grateful that despite my troubles getting pregnant and feeling crappy once pregnant....I have healthy pregnancies for my babies.  What more could you ask for?  I am also taking a moment each day to take a deep breath and feel the excitement and anticipation of my life at this time.  When I said to Jake last night that expecting a child is about the most exciting thing you can do in your life, he couldn't help but agree.  I am strangely relieved that I feel slightly unprepared and butterflies because this is my second baby.  I kinda thought maybe the fact that I had done it before would change that feeling, but it hasn't and I love that nervous excitement!  I also hope some of that knowledge from having done this once before will help though ;)

I am trying to work through any feelings I have about this most likely being my last baby.  I know we won't do fertility again, but more than that, I don't know if we know for sure if we feel "done" after our second or not.  I really am hoping that I know after this baby is here that our family feels complete in our hearts or not.  I feel like I know I can be happy with 2 without question.  I would be ok not having that miracle 3rd conceiving on our own.  We are so blessed to be having this second child.  I know only God knows if another is in our future, but deep down I think I know if we will have another or not and I think Jake knows the answer to that too.

One thing that amuses me about pregnancy is the outsider commentary....in the last week I have gotten..."you don't look like you have put on much weight, but you could still blow up".  Hmmm thanks, I'm gonna assume that won't happen.  "You don't even look pregnant from the back".  Hey thanks be sure to update me if that status changes!  "Your baby looks anxious".  Oh I know readers this is a good one.  "Anxious?" I asked....cause what does that mean right??  He said the baby looked low and ready to come out and play.  Uh eww and such a strange way of putting it.  For the record baby boy hasn't dropped which is good we still have a few weeks.

In all the Frese family is doing well...Jake works his butt off and D gives him a hard time but he loves his daddy.  D is doing great despite typical toddler moments from time to time.  Nothing I can't handle.....yet!  And me....I'm sitting back at this moment feeling my littlest love move amidst the butterflies in my tummy.  August is gonna fly.